Monday, March 3, 2014
But my current situation --- which is working 7 days a week trying to get my soup business off the ground isn't helping things much. Although I will not blame it on that. Still not eating a proper breakfast or lunch and just a nice lovely dinner of whatever I want, but now it's not so easy to resist picking throughout the day. I'm also so busy that I'm not drinking all of my water. My experience is that WATER is the beginning of weight loss. Whenever I'm diligent about getting those 10 glasses of water in my body every day I do great. I guess the water fills you up and hydration is sometimes what your body is asking for -- not food.
So for this week I will concentrate on getting those glasses of water in first and foremost! Every. Single. Day. And then I will go back to lots of fresh fruit during the day and a granola bar or yogurt with tea at 3:00. My routine helped me lose 52.3 lbs and there is no reason that I shouldn't be able to continue!
In short....this week will be all about making myself PRIORITY #1!
That said....I am considering pulling out the prescription that my doctor gave me for the 11mg Qsymia and doing a month or two more on it.....
Monday, February 24, 2014
Whoops - seem to be going in the wrong direction right now! Nervous as all hell to be honest. I cannot and will not gain my weight back!!!!!! That is precisely why I'm here. Accountability - just declaring and writing those words - helps me to gain focus and realize how very important it is to NOT allow myself to gain any more weight.
I will lose weight this week! I will get back down! I will not lose focus! I CAN DO THIS!
I will lose weight this week! I will get back down! I will not lose focus! I CAN DO THIS!
Monday, February 17, 2014
Reality has set in. Week one was insane. I was in the commercial kitchen that I rented for about 14 hours and nearly killed myself. Last week went much, much better. I broke it into 2 days, chose recipes that were simpler and had fewer ingredients and fewer steps and I really enjoyed the cooking part last week. And after all --- if I'm not enjoying it --- is there a point? Sales week one were brisk, but I didn't set the world on fire. Expected, since farmer's market sales are very much about establishing connections and relationships with regular clients. Yesterday (market is on Sundays in Malibu), I did a bit worse, which was a bummer. But I paid for the month and the start up costs weren't cheap (insurance, pop up tents and display materials, permits, etc), so I want to give it a fair shot. My plan is to do 2 full months and assess afterwards.
All of this is leaving me with my head spinning. I don't have time to breathe and my eating is suffering a bit because of it. As you can see by my stats I'm stuck in that ever-so-slightly up from my lowest low number and not going anywhere. I'd love to break through that and get back down to under 150 -- which I believe is, for me, optimal health (or at least the beginnings of that). No longer on Qysmia (at least for now), I'm having trouble getting that number to budge! Let's see what happens this week....
But sometimes....I feel like all I ever do is spin my wheels. Get no where. I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but I work so hard and never seem to have much to show for it. I'm waiting for my big break. My breakthrough moment....or something like that! When will it come?
Monday, February 3, 2014
I've dreamt of opening a restaurant, but for about a million reasons thought it best to start a bit smaller, so I'm starting a farmer's market business. I'll be selling my gourmet frozen soup at the market in Malibu. Rumor has it the rich and famous and the chefs and house keepers of the rich and famous are all over the joint. So sign me up!
My first market is this coming Sunday!!!!! Yikes! I'm so nervous AND I haven't even gone into my commercial kitchen to cook yet. My labels and jars haven't arrived and so I can't make the 6 soups until they do. So Friday is my cook day....nothing like waiting until the last minute!
In the meantime there's about 50 other things that have to be done, so no time to do anything else right now. In a roundabout way I'm saying that I'm too busy to write a clever blog post. Wish me luck! xox
Monday, January 27, 2014
So after a week of exercise and eating the same way that I did on Q, I pulled off a nice healthy loss and will continue to do the same thing this week. I should also mention that I've VERY in tune with my body and it's rhythms. Are you? I know when something hormonal is going on with my body - and those hormonal fluctuations effect the scale for sure! This is one of those times for me.
Now...on to something hopefully more interesting. I'm reading a couple of great books right now. One, called "Finding Your Own North Star", by Oprah therapy-guru Martha Beck. I'm finding it to be a wonderful read that I highly recommend if you need to come back to YOU. There's a particular section that spoke to me and that was about "finding your new everybody". In the book Martha instructs you to make a list of all of the people - your "everybody" - that say negative things about you or your weight loss. So try that - get out some paper and make a list of all the people in your life that say shit about you on one side and on the other side, specifically write down what they say. You'll find that the list is actually much much shorter than you imagine it to be. Yet in your mind you've probably thought "everybody thinks I'm fat" or "nobody thinks I can do this". You may also uncover some folks that seem to consistently sabotage your efforts. It's time to set those folks free!
In my life I have 2 lovely sisters. Very different, one tends to be a very easy-going and loving person. The other is spirited, generous to a fault, very loving and loyal....and absolutely insane when it comes to her own personal struggles with weight. Generally only about 15 pounds overweight, those 15 lbs have plagued her for years and years and she pretty much talks incessantly about weight, models, celebrities, diets, working out, food, etc. etc. I love her dearly, but I realized that she is tops on my list of saboteurs and she needs to be set free (at least from that part of our relationship). Recently she sent me one of her "weight loss tips of the day" - generally not something healthy or something that a celebrity did to lose weight (which HELLO - it's actually their JOB to be thin!), and I had to write her back and basically say that I've taken weight loss off my list of things to worry about. I think she got that message. Then the other day she was at my house and I was preparing dinner. She said, "I'm not sure about that skirt. It really accentuates your belly and even though that part of you has gone down a bit, it's still needs work." Sigh. My mom, who was sitting there too, said, "What belly? She looks terrific." in my defense. But at that moment I instantly wanted to grab for some chocolate and I made the connection immediately that this person sabotages me whenever possible and I need to either a. shine it on b. defend myself or c. ignore these comments and realize where they're coming from.
So back to the book.... Martha says if you need to lose some people who are not cheering you on every step of the way then find a new cheering section. Find your new "everybody". And well, that's why I'm here. I knew that I needed a new support group for this particular effort. So if I haven't told you before - I think you rock. I think you can do this. I think you'll lose as much weight as I have - maybe more, effortlessly. In short - I'm proud of you perfect stranger!
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
So....what's going on here? Is it the fact that I've gone off of Qsymia and my body is now adjusting to the change? Is it just a mental thing? Is it just that my body is catching up with the holiday eating now (and believe it or not my body has a tendency to do that)?
There's really only one solution to getting these questions answered. That solution is to watch each and every thing that I'm putting in my mouth this week. I'm going to keep a food journal to be really on track. If I'm eating what I ate when I was on the drug - and I don't lose anything, or much at all I'll freak out....then. For now I'm choosing just to breathe and realize that our bodies can be unpredictable and hormones, stress and other factories play into a woman's weight.
And if you read my blog.....reach out and give me some support. I need it this week! And maybe a hug! And maybe a YOU CAN DO THIS GIRL! And maybe a donut --- wait no donuts! ;)
Monday, January 13, 2014
Let me back up......What I know about this blog is that if you're here reading this, chances are you are either on Qsymia or contemplating it and wanting to know --- 1. Does it work? 2. Will I be hungry? 3. What does it do? Right? I know that I searched for blogs or real-life experiences before going on it and came up empty handed and that's what prompted me to write this.
So why don't I just start by answering those 3 questions? 1. Does it work? The one word answer to that question is YES. I have an almost 55 lb weight loss to show for it. I'm not an easy loser. I was on Weight Watchers for almost a year and literally lost 10 lbs. I kept losing and gaining the same weight over and over. And for the most part I did the program quite well. And while I think that WW works brilliantly for some and is absolutely awesome for maintenance -- for me it just wasn't the answer. And part B of that first question is HOW DOES IT WORK? Which I guess will handily lead you into question number 2. WILL I BE HUNGRY? And the answer to that is oddly -- yes. Which then I guess really does lead into question number 3. WHAT DOES IT DO? And gosh darn it if I can't figure out the answer to that one, but honestly I really can't. Because I really do experience a fairly normal amount of hunger on Qsymia, yet I'm able to work through it easier. So....I guess that's really the answer to how it works. For some reason you're hungry, but your mind says "I've got this. I can work through this hunger." and you don't reach for the food. It's really quite fascinating.
I've had plenty of days where I thought to myself that Qysmia was a placebo. Days where I was adding it all up and saying that I worked out 7 days a week and was hungry often, so really....wasn't I doing this all by myself any way? Days where I thought, "Holy shit - I'm spending a small fortune on this stuff. It's $5.00 a day!", but then I'd look at my results and thought no way I'm going off it --- I'm losing!
So interesting scale this week. I started out the week doing wonderfully and weighed myself on Friday morning (something I rarely do --- once a week is enough!), and on that day I was down to 151.8 (2 lbs down!), and boy oh boy if I wasn't thrilled! So what did I do with that information? I ate more. The next 3 days were NOT good. I felt like my old self. At a party I had a tiny piece of chocolate raspberry tart and enjoyed it so much that I went back for another piece - only this one big and unnecessary! Stupid! I can't helping thinking that when I was on Q I would NOT have done that. My brain would have been wired to say NO WAY. (In fact, I probably would have resisted the first piece.)
So, I'm at a crossroads this week. Get the new RX filled at Costco? Spring for the $150.00 (even though we can't afford it!!) because I'm so damn worth it and I still haven't reach my goal and this stuff will help me get there? Do it on my own and keep my fingers crossed? I said that I'd do it for 2 weeks and if no loss then I'd go back on it. I've come to far to blow it now. I'm going to Costco this morning!